For the past six months I have been in a mind set where I know my business is my life’s purpose, but I am not yet seeing the monetary results. I was starting to question what the point was of pursuing my purpose or of being an entrepreneur. I compared myself to other people and their successes. I compared myself to entrepreneurs who have been in business for 10, 15 and 20 years. The more I compared the more of a downward spiral I took because it was the comparison that was making me unhappy and sad. There were many days I found myself in front of the TV watching Netflix, eating ice cream or just sleeping on the couch.  I also entertained thoughts of giving up and getting a job. When I found myself seriously contemplating what kind of job I would get and if it would be enough to pay my bills, I knew I had hit rock bottom. 

I would go to sleep, and I wake up with this on my mind. It was an all-consuming thought that guided did the actions I didn’t take towards building my business. I had feelings of not being good enough, not being a risk taker and lacking self-confidence to promote my business. If you were a fly on the wall you would see me having conversations out loud with myself questioning whether I could cut it as an entrepreneur. 

 

One day, I had a conversation with an acquaintance who was complaining about all the money she made at her job, but she wasn’t happy. She said she didn’t have a purpose and her job was not fulfilling. It was in this moment that I realized the thoughts I was having were just thoughts in my head- they were not my reality.

 

I finally decided to have a conversation with my mentor and coach who said I should not listen to the voice in my head. Inside my head was not a good place to be. She cited all the accomplishments that I had made in the last two years and pointed out to me that I was in comparing myself to people who were in business longer than I was and who were already established. This comparison wasn’t a realistic one and it one that was setting me up to fail. I wasn’t taking into consideration that I had only been an entrepreneur for two years and I was able to make a living. 

It was in this moment of recognizing all of my accomplishments that the lightbulb went off in my head. I’m not an entrepreneur for the sole purpose of making money but because it is my purpose and it is satisfying. I am actually happy being an author, speaker and a coach because I am making a difference for so many people. The reality is that I believe that all the actions I’m taking will produce fruit. It is my faith that’s going to manifest the results when I keep taking the actions one day at a time. I also realized that I had to accept where I am in my journey of being an entrepreneur, and nothing happens before it’s time. It was in that moment of acceptance, that my mindset shifted, I chose to be happy and  the sadness and self-doubt disappeared.

 

As I reflect now,  I know that for me it’s better to have a purpose and no money than to have money and no purpose. 

With Love,

Fatima Gould