I would go to sleep, and I wake up with this on my mind. It was an all-consuming thought that guided did the actions I didn’t take towards building my business. I had feelings of not being good enough, not being a risk taker and lacking self-confidence to promote my business. If you were a fly on the wall you would see me having conversations out loud with myself questioning whether I could cut it as an entrepreneur.
One day, I had a conversation with an acquaintance who was complaining about all the money she made at her job, but she wasn’t happy. She said she didn’t have a purpose and her job was not fulfilling. It was in this moment that I realized the thoughts I was having were just thoughts in my head- they were not my reality.
I finally decided to have a conversation with my mentor and coach who said I should not listen to the voice in my head. Inside my head was not a good place to be. She cited all the accomplishments that I had made in the last two years and pointed out to me that I was in comparing myself to people who were in business longer than I was and who were already established. This comparison wasn’t a realistic one and it one that was setting me up to fail. I wasn’t taking into consideration that I had only been an entrepreneur for two years and I was able to make a living.
It was in this moment of recognizing all of my accomplishments that the lightbulb went off in my head. I’m not an entrepreneur for the sole purpose of making money but because it is my purpose and it is satisfying. I am actually happy being an author, speaker and a coach because I am making a difference for so many people. The reality is that I believe that all the actions I’m taking will produce fruit. It is my faith that’s going to manifest the results when I keep taking the actions one day at a time. I also realized that I had to accept where I am in my journey of being an entrepreneur, and nothing happens before it’s time. It was in that moment of acceptance, that my mindset shifted, I chose to be happy and the sadness and self-doubt disappeared.
As I reflect now, I know that for me it’s better to have a purpose and no money than to have money and no purpose.